Sada-chan trading dreams....

Hello Friends,


SUNDAY - time for Sadako ^^ YES YES <3

Sorry it is not halloween or something but i just i love the pic.

See friends, world is about love, that is what i always. Love, dreams, and hope. The 3 basements of a good live.

I love my wife, i dream of a family, and i hope for a future. See i had a dream in the past. Those who know the blog from the start know that my dream was to move to Japan and live the live i only dream. Want to be in a land where i belong to and live the live i like.
But time changes and dream change too.

I quit my dreams about moving. So this blog come to an end after all. No no you will see more unboxings soon and read my weird stuff. But the original reason for this blog ends today. My dreams will now be moved to reality. I trade one dream for another. I trade Japan for a new life. I trade my weird attitude for some serious. I trade the careless life for responsibility. I will have a new dream.
I will expand my love. And how could i do better than create new life with the person which i love more than ever.
I will have a kid soon. Let´s hope that fate is nice to me and fulfill this dream. I can´t wait to hold the ultimate prove of my love to my wife in my own hands. The moment when time stand still is not longer on the bridge over Sumida river in Tokyo. The moment when my time stand still will be the birth of my kid now. A journey for the rest of my lifetime. The only options to make my love to my wife deeper and stronger.
Two become three. The we way we go together we will share with the result of our love.
You know that love doubles when shared. I will spread this to the world.
I will teach my kid that if you act with love in the heart and live your dreams you maybe fail sometimes, but if you act with hate you fail for sure anytime.

People, i will write more about my family in the future. I give you my hand and guide you REAL LIFE in the world of my dreams. I am sure the day my dream come true is close, soooo close. I have hope in my heart and i am sure i can create a dream you all can see soon.

Wish me luck, love more and make this world a lovely place for all of us.

Shinji-kun <3

Sada-chan to infinity ....

Hello Friends,

it is sunday but it is not just a sunday, this sunday is an important one. But before i start i have found a cute and lovely Sada-chan for you. See and smile.

I am thoughtful at this sunday. This weekend could be the last of my old life i have. My family plans are going in the final state and next week becomes a important one.
I sit here and i think about my future. I trade my old dreams for new one´s and i hope that my future will be bright and wonderful even i see some clouds at the sky. But that´s not bad. Without rain there is no rainbow and without night there is no sunrise. So not bad to have a problem from time to time. But be honest, we all dream from a perfect future right ?

Last week was a sad one. I saw a dream die and a rule of my own life failing. I saw how a a family broke up. See that happens 1000 times, but in this case it broke my heart a bit, because it was the base of my own dreams. I mean if a perfect one break up how should my imperfect base work ?
My little family, wife and me, we are for sure not a stable base for a family. We both are a bit childish and we both live big dream even we go to far some times. But with the dream we both have we thought we can do it. Motivated due to the other family i changed my attitude and thought about my inconstant life and thought that with 33 it is time to start a halfway stable life, with kids and i realized that one of my biggest fear of the past, to get old in my hometown and with the same job like my mom´s life was, would become my future if i do the last step with my wife. I thought this fear is not bad, cause i saw that in another case it brings so much luck that i not fear this normal future anymore. But then i saw that in the case of the other family it not worked.
No i am really unsure. See, if some family which was the base of my dream, which i thought it was perfect not working, how could mine work. Weird thinking, right ? But that´s what bother my soul now.
But in the end i come to a conclusion. The others not have one thing i have. I never doubt my love, i never doubt my relationship. Sure when wife quarrel we both say sometimes stuff that we doubt but when we look in the others eyes we are see that are just words, our soul tell us different. Wife or myself never doubt our love. That´s a big difference to others. We never think about what if .....
We never think about leaving each other, we never think about what if love dies. Cause our life´s are connected. See, after 10 Years of relationship my wife and i still do all together, we still kissing each day like teens, we still tell us "i love you" ten time a day, we still discover some new in the other from day to day. Every day i wake up and see her i tell myself: YOU GOT IT ! I am rich of love cause i have her at my side.  My life is unstable and weird, but my love is strong. My love is my base, and i am sure if all others fail, my love can fix all problems for us without failing.
That´s why so many marriage broke. They always doubt things.
Most relationships are start with doubts. Die the others love me, did this last forever ? First questions most people ask them self when starting a new love. I never asked myself those questions when i met my wife. I saw her and i know that i never let her go if she is willing to do the same.
I found out that a strong relationship just need two things. That is love and closeness.
Time together, spend in love is the biggest base for a bright future and the greatest hope in dark nights when you are in desperations.

See a few years ago a did some mistakes and told my wife at one evening: It is better you go and leave me. It is not right to stand at my side after what´s happened.
She had tears in eyes and just shake head. Without words i saw she not doubt my love, not doubt my future, and she not even think a moment about leaving me. These time back than were dark and hopeless but in this time i found out that the love of my wife is my light in the darkest moments of my life. Now i remember those bad days i have a smile on my face. Even time were hard, i was never alone. And i am sure i never will be until i die. This all is a difference to the other family which failed.
Sad moments are less sad together, good ones become better when share.

So i am sure if i go this way, may little family project will be a big win, and our love will grow with my family grow. Cause i trust in love, i trust in love till infinity, and i not doubt, i never really did.
I am just sure that it work. And if it fails, ........ no it not fails. I thought about all, and still find no problem which can make it a fail.
Love always win, and YES friends, LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED. Most people forgot this fact in theses times.
You not need money, no great job, or some like that. Money not smile, a job not give a hug.

See it and know it, tust in your love. And fight for it. If your love weakens, fight and fight and not give up. Try to get it back, and YES get it back or die trying. To give up on love is like die. So i personal can give just that advice. If you give up on your love, you give up life and the reason you be on this planet.

With this words i end my journey to my soul. Net week will set my life new from the base, but this base is strong. So i smile and look forward what my life brings to me. I see a bright future. I always wanted to be important for the world. But why for the world, it is enough to be important for the persons you love, that´s more than any other.

Love and Live are not accidental written almost similar. Live is not possible without Love <3

Have a nice sunday and a bright future,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan´s new frontiers....

Hello Friends,

Sunday, and Sada-chan is ready again. Wanna see her. Here we go.

Hehe, i found this sketches and so i show her this way today.
It has absolutely nothing to do with my topic today.

As you guys know i plan to start my own family very soon. I perpare this like a science topic in a lab. All stuff must be perfect. Nothing will be made randomly. I want not to make mistakes. But i sometimes i think that nature will do the job better than i ever can prepare this.
My will to reproduce raise from day to day *grin*


Anyway i waited so long i could wait a few weeks longer for this actions. See, i change my life massive these days.

I personally hate change..... not hate, that is the wrong topic. I FEAR change. I am fear what could happen. Sometimes i want to do what Taka in my book did. Stop time at a perfect moment ;)
So this step i do is the biggest i ever did in my life. After i did that nothing will be the same anymore.,
I stop my dream about living somewhere else and i settle down to my town for all time. I will always be the Shinji who live in a little German town and dream about Japan and never get there gain (at least for next 10 years).

Today i had a very nice and long talk with my friend +Matt Virgo . He is a really wise guy and told me how he handle that and this gave me a bit hope and a different point of view.
Plan a family can be a bigger trip than travel to the space. Expect much and get much more.
Really i can´t wait to hold a new little Ikari in my arms and explore the world with her / him and show how precious life can be, even you just live in a little German town and dream of another places.

I think i am on the fist step to a journey which ist the biggest in my whole lifetime.
The start is now, the destination is life, and the way is love.

Never give up, and trust in those you love, and there is always a way.

I am ready, i want to have my one way ticket to a bright future.
Love is here, the rest we find on the way,


Shinji-kun

Sada-chan hate change ? ....

Hello Friends,

sunday and therefore another time of Sada-chan. 
Wanna see her... here she is ^^

    (Loooool to funny so i must post her - actually i work on a 13 " MBP)


Today i bring up a topic which guide me since i was born and which will guide me until until i die.
I talk from the fact that everything change. I personally know that we can stop the time, and the fact that things change... but sometimes i really wish that i can slow down the world a bit.

I always thought i can live this live how it is until the rest of my day. Live careless and free till the day of infinity, but facts changes and life go on.  I hate that the world changes. If a situation is good why change some stuff ? Why ever try to get things better and better if the are good already.

I mean if we try to improve day by day, we can never be proud of the tings we have, right ?
What we have is precious and we should sometimes stay still and watch back and smile and be happy with all the goals we reached until today.

World is running faster and faster and sometimes i would stop just all. One of the main topics if my book is the fact that the main hero want to hold a perfect moment for infinity ?
Would i do this in my current life ? I think no, but i want to keep some facts of my current life in the current state.

Now i am on the edge of a major change of my life, and as much i fear it, i am also curious what happens next. So maybe change is not bad at all. In the end i have my past always with me, deep in my hear. My memory is one of my most precious treasure ^^

I hope my future will be as much exciting and bright as my past or present. If this come true, i will be happy and always smile. And if the future is not as bright as now i have a perfect person at my side which make it bright for me again.

With this thought i can sleep every night with a smile on my face. Love in heart and ideas in mind, that is the key to a good future.


Love more, live better,

Shinji-kun 

Sada-chan take a vacation .....

Hello Friends,

i am a bit busy so i take a little break. I present you some new figures and Sada-chan again soon ^^

Thanks your patience <3

Love everyday,

Shinji-kun ^^

Asuka Langley ( Ikari ) extra wedding figure ( EVA )UNBOXING

Hello friends,


i am in the mood to show you a perfect and wonderful figure. A great waifu, a girl which only can pe explained as perfect.
Ready for a lifetime marriage, for the ultimate bonding ceremony and for an absolute cuteness overload ? Then you are ready to follow me in the land of dreams <3 <3 <3

Yes friends, i will share today the greates bride ever seen. It is wedding time, time for love, time for the best of the best, time for waifu, time for love time to raise my heartbeat into the sky. Welcome Asuka in her cutest form. YES WE WILL <3

This figure come from the land where dreams where born, the country where my heart is, she come from JP as most times. I was very happy to get her. This is not just a figure, this is like a little personal wedding again. Let´s have a look and see why i am in love <3

YES ! EPIC ! WONDERFUL !

This is not just a figure, this is a dream i can touch and see with eyes wide open. Want to know why i love this figures ? Simple. Each travel far until they arrive in my home. Every figure tell an own story and every figure is unique. Ever touched your own dreams ? No, then it is time to buy a cute figure, then you see what i mean ;)

 This is not a box, this is a litte package full of love and cuteness. Love comes in cute boxes from JP, thats the first rule of every figure collector <3
Let´s get her out and spread the love to you ^^

 

See her, fall in love, fall on your knees in front of such a cute girl and start to dream and drift into a perfect world without to leave your computer. See, this girl her is the direct ticket in a better world. She make me smile and make my heart bump a bit faster. I feel i am alive when i get such nice figures here. <3

 Turn her a bit and fall in love from each side you see her. The dress is adorable and the girl not needs word. I mean ever try to describe a dream ? See, not possible. Watch and enjoy and be thankful for the fact that something of such beauty exist in this world.
If there is a god, maybe it comes in a form of such a cute figure ;)

 

The dress matches perfect to her hair. I mean you can only see her here, the reality is always better. She is really well made and her dress is a bit translucent which make her even more an eye-catcher. But ever seen a Asuka which is not instantly a cuteness-overload ?

YES, she is a sure thing if you want to fall in love <3

 

Look the applications on her dress. Roses, just perfect that roses on a dress of a rose ;)

Wedding never be so cute. See her and dream. I think instantly of my own wedding...... oh yes, sure she is my waifu. Here and in that what you call the real world. Not much difference, except my original is always a bit more pretty than this figure. <3

 

Full of hope. Look his she stay here. She want to ask us if we love her. And sure we do. This wedding gonna be purrfect. The only word i could say if i see her this way is "YES".

No need to hold back. Not bad to love a cute figure like her.
I promised i take you in the land of dreams. Did i promised to much <3 ?

Look how great is her dress. Shiny on the bottom and it look real like ade of real fabric. This figure is realistic like hell. I mean i think she will walk to the church instantly. I will company her for sure. Would you reject such an offer ?

The perfect moment for Asuka to hide the TSUN and show the DERE part.
It cost Shinji many attempts to get her in such an outfit. But love wins ever so let´s get ready to celebrate the wedding Miss Ikari ;)

Why so shy, no need for. Go for it and be my waifu, at least in the digital world i will say yes. <3

Look at her dress again. See how good it is made. It hast folds like a real dress. Most people prefer white as wedding dress (there is a white version of her too), but i think the color here matches her hair perfect and make her very pretty. I think she s absolute pretty <3

 

The eyes and the smile. You want say YES, sure you want.  I know nobody which can resist her.

Call me traditional, but i think everybody should marry in his life. Love is to great to hide. And what can show your love to another person better than a marriage ? Nothing.

A personal word before we continue. I am married since almost 10 years to a perfect wife, just like this figure here. I never regret one day of my marriage. Not the good neither the bad times. All days you share become perfect. The good days become better with someone you love, the bad days become less worse if you have a shoulder to lean on.
Humans are not made to be alone, no existence is made to be seperated. Even atoms connect to a "family".

A bit details. Look her flowers. For sure in matching colors.

Great and well made. For sure this flowers will last forever like my love to her and even more the love to my real wife.

See, i learned that love is the only thing which doubles if you share it. Love more make more love. Simple logic, right. All can be changed by three simple words "I love you".
If life seems to be sad and hopless remember there is someone out ther who love you. Even if you not found him, even if you must search this person until "all become one in the third impact" it is worth the search. There is someone out there. Not give up trust in love <3

Have a better look on her dress. This is really cool made. The manufacturer has give her love. You see how cute she is.

A word to cuteness. Every person is cute in it´s own way. A good soul is all you need to be pretty for the one you love.
Look at this nice girl. She is cute, cause you open your heart for her. Works with any person if you are willing to give a bit love. Your life will increase i you do <3

How dows love and hope lool ? See this one and smile. Hope is when you believe in that thing you need most. In my case it is love.

I mean i am at the side of my wife since 10 years, and every day is like gift i got. Who needs money, who needs to be popular if he is alone. What is a life worth if you can not share what you feel ?
See, love has many ways and sometimes love come just as a cute little figure like Asuka here <3

 

Love is like a flower. It will make us smile and looks wonderful. Sure a flower can fade away, but if your love is strong thant it will last forever. Love is like a ring of flowers Asuka wear here. Round and endless. If you think it is the end you are just at the start. If you are in a realtionship for a while maybe you get tired of love. Then remember how it were when you met your love the first time. Think how wonderful it was. There is no reason why it coul not become so perfect like in the first time. All you need is to remember and it become true again. Never give up. Love is worth to fight for <3

This eyes say so much more than words can say. Look into someones eyes is a look in his soul without deviaton. The direct way to a soul lay in the eyes.

Try it look in the eyes of the one you love and you see yourself if the love is deep, only the good parts reflect to you. The bad parts are hidden and accepted by your partner. That is what love is for. See the good and deal with the bad sides.
Give and forgive.
I for example i am jealous like hell. But my wife forgive me that attitude as she not see the jealousy, she only see that i fear to lose what i love. That means accept the bad and see the good parts.

Look on her again. Not her chest *grin*

No look at her hand. What will she say us ? She say us i am protect you, i cherish you, i feel good, my heart beats faster, or she simple want to say "I am in love with you".
Love always find a way and it is always great. A wedding in not the final stage of a relationship. It is the base where you can build a love on.
I am personally very proud if i can say to others "this is my wife". See, some people are proud of their house, or their car, or their money. Thos stuff will fade away. I am proud of my love.
When people ask me what is my goal in life i can say. I already reached my goal. I have a good wife and a deep love. Success is not the job you have. It is the love i share. And if you see it this way, i am the president of the world :P

See her details. She hides so many secrets. Same as for a relationship. I personally share all my time with my wife, we never divide, and i still find now sides at my wife every day. It take more than a lifetime to know the one you love in every detail. If you love someone, no ever become tired to explore new sides at this person.

Love is like a rainbow, it contains all colors which on this world, including those which you not see. Sometimes it need more than your eyes to see the truth. It need your heart to feel it.

With this picture of such a cute figure i will end my trip into the world of love and cuteness. It was a while since i write so much to my figure unboxing. But Asuka make it easy to talk about love, i mean in this appearance it is easy to make me melt away.

Love has so many sides, we explored one of them together today. So go to the one you love and share a bit love with him / her.

Love more and make the world better.
Thanks for reading my blog,

Shinji-kun <3

Sada-chan is serious ..... ?

Hello Friends,


Sunday is time for Sada-chan.
Here she is, and she is sweet ;)

Today i am a bit unsure. I mean i am still working on develop my family.
See, i am sure i want kids now and sure i can handle all the problems which could happen. But after so many years of doubts on myself and doubts of my wife if i mean it serious we both have a bit problems to take some things serious.
I mean i think wife say to easy "yes i am sure" and i say to easy "yes i am honest now".
See, to much fun can make trouble if it comes to the serious part.

Anyway i must try to take it serious, and wife must try to trust i have change about my opinion to have a family now.
A step we both can do now ? We will never regret it if we do it ? We are absolute sure for all time ?
No, i donßt think so. There is no "absolute sure for all time" in the world, there is only an "absulute sure now". One exception of course. We both sure that love last forever.
If you see it from this point we are sure about the kid. I mean if we give him love this works on the kid too. We never regret our love, so we will never regret the kid, right ?
A simple logive. As said many times. If you include love in a thing ,you can master almost everything.

I always thought in jealousy of a kid, cause my wife will give love to children, and not only to me anymore. But i am changed my mind rapidly, cause i learned one sure thing. Love does not lower if you share it, it doubles and come back twice as strong ^^


So i am serious about this all ? I think so, but i am not sure. But if i close eyes and listen to my heart and think of all what could happen, i have a smile on my face, so not bad, right ?


I wish you a niceand lovely sunday <3

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan miss the old times.....

Good morning friends,



it is Sunday in Gensokyo and i am happy to transmit my Sada-chan live and instantly to the real world to you ^^
Here she comes.

Some of you would as what is Gensokyo.... very simple, a fictive world based on the game Touhou. It is my home now, as part of the "melt down both worlds" project. You know i am still try to mix my reality with my fictional and it works more or less. 

I mean live if much more exciting if you extend the senses and expand your reality. 

At the moment my chracter is in a condition i hope my real life will never get in. I must deal with a situation when i can not handle and some others too. Sometimes i really ask myself if my project not go to far ? But when i see that i change my real life in complete different directions cause of my actions than i am really surprised how dreams can change your daily life.

The posting from the last weekend for e.x. (remember the question to wife for set up a family) is a direct results of my thoughts of the digital world. I never could imagine a family, but see a family grow just digital changed my mind, and so i use many of my things i learned in my world inside the web for outside world. Believe it or not, it affect my life in positive ways. Digital world is a practice without the risk to fail, and that give safety for my reality. Cool thing, agree ???

Anyway that is not the point today. I am today a bit in the "i miss old times mode". Inspired by my current plot and my life in real world. 

Life become fast and rush aways like a highspeed train. I mean, it is may 12th, and in my feelings the new year start just a few day ago. Time rush, and so rush my life. Not get me wrong, i LOVE to become older, i enjoy the days, but it is very interesting to see how all become fast and the live-span become shorter. I miss the quiet days from the past sometimes. World is centered on go on, and sometimes i miss the point where world stand still for a short time. These moments become rage. I personally think we should all take a short break from time to time and think about the past and remember the things we already had. The good and the bad facts. I personally miss to see the world, my time runs so fast that i not left my hometown for more than a year. I am really enjoy to live here, but my heart want to see the world again, but this dreams are short and not last long after they finished. So i decided to travel, but in an other way. I start the journey which last a lifetime, i start a family and if i want to travel i go in my little world i have here. 

That is a good solution. But i still miss the times back than, my trips to Tokyo, or Paris, just to be in another world for a few days. OK i plan to travel to UK this year, and that trip will end the my part of carefree life. I bound myself to my hometown and set my priority to another thing. But it is wrong to miss it from time to time ? I don´t know. 

So a part of me will always miss the past, cause it was a big part of my life. But if i look in the future i see a bigger part of my life in advance and i have a smile on my face thinking of that. 

I miss the old times, but i am not sad when i remember of it. I cherish the old times cause it gave me energy and hope for the future.

I wish you a nice sunday out there in the reality.

Love what you do now cause in a moment it is past,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan is into family.....

Hello Friends,

today Sada-chan is a bit late but i enjoyed the the first really sunny day in this year so i set IRL higher than my world here, forgive me folks.

Anyway Sada-chan is here for you, and today she is not alone. See and smile:

Why i chose a family pic on my blog ? Simple: Those who read my postings more often know, that Sada-chan is always a reflection of my feelings and very personal.

In the last weeks my emotional world changed massive. I think it all started when i watched my friend +Matt Virgo on G+ posting a picture where he was baking some cake with his nice daughter. 

I must be honest. I am a careless guy which never thought of kids or a family, until that posting. 

I must really say i always was against having kids and want to enjoy life alone with my wife. I was jealous that my wife will gave a part of her love to a kid and i am not her number one anymore. Yes, thats what i think. I wanted my life the way it was for all the time. Live without much responsibility and  without any problems a kid can cause.

But after seeing my friends pics of him and his daughter i changed massive. I followed every of Matt´s posting with passion, especial about the pregnancy of his wife wit the little Itashi. It make me smile every day when he told to us and waited with his family for the birth of his newborn.

I lived a part of his life when watching this new life begin. Yes Matt, your little one, your daughter and your family changed my attitude about priorities massive.

I really thought hard about what i want to do now, and i set my priority to another level. My old goal was to see Japan again, to travel around the world and have much fun. But i must say this is not longer important to me, cause i could reach this dreams and then the are short and then fade away. I wished so much to walk over Komagata-bashi bridge again, the place where the life and the time is born, but i realized that i just must close my eyes to be there instantly. I still can feel the sun from the last morning i stand on this bridge when i close my eyes, and i can feel the slight breeze then. The view of Sumida river and the mornings sounds of Tokyo. Oh how i missed that place. But i never left it for real, a part of my soul is still there, and i have a smile on my face now when i think about it.

So i can say "good bye dreams it was nice to have you" and i can do it with a smile.

I want to start the travel of my lifetime without leaving my door. I don´t want to see the place where life come from, i want to see life which grows, i want to have a family. I want to see the miracle if new life with my own eyes, i want to hear the first heartbeats of a kid on a CTG, i want to feel the first kicks of a little one when i touch the belly of my wife, and i want to see how my family grows. 

Yes Denise, you not take me serious, cause i speak still like a baka in this topic, but i am deadly serious now. I want to go this step with you, the sooner the better. No doubt, no fear, no other dreams are so important than to share this precious moments. We mastered so much in our past 10 Years together, so this new journey should be very easy for us to handle. As long as we side by side we can do that with a smile on our face and with love in our hearts.

See, other people has a weird life too, and our personal situation is all other then optimal, but i am think that all which is need to do this is deep love. I have not the big money, i have not the perfect social status, and we sure live a life which is all other than normal, but i am sure we both can do this if we just believe in it. 

I never asked you proper if you would marry me. I just decided this and you agreed, and this was not romantic at all, and i am very sorry about this. But now i will ask you something really important, and i do it now and here in the web.

Why i do it this way ? First is that our love grown up in this media, and second i can write better than i talk, cause here speaks my soul only.

Want you have a family with me, would you make me the most happy guy in the world and go this step with me ? Want you take the first step to the journey of my lifetime ? 

I love you with all my heart, and i will support you as long as i can, you will never be alone. Love, grows day by day, so let´s our love grow a bit more <3

This was a very personal posting and i hope you all smile a bit with me now ^^

Love it is worth everything,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan regrets sometime.....

Hello Friends,


sunday is coming and the is again time for Sadako-chan. Wanna see her, i show her.

Today i am a bit in a strange mood. I don´t know why but i think about my past and things long ago.

Lost friends, lost places, lost memories, and lost love this all is a part of my past.

Why i think about past, maybe because of my current role-play, which is still a big part of my live, maybe cause of the lousy weather outside and a strange dream i had when i had my afternoon nap today.

Am i prod of my past ? Sure i am. I mean i have a great wife and i plan kids, and i will have a family in the near future (yes you see my lovely wife i am nit joking i think about that day by day !). I am say that i am the most proud and happy guy i can imagine, but still i think i had could done better in the past.

I disappointed people and sometimes i disappointed myself. I passed on dreams which were in reach and i not take many changes i get. But all this lead to the fact that i am who i am. 

I love my life and how i am now. I am an sick man with not so much energy which i want have, but i am happy with it. I never give up, and i am strong, cause i have the ultimate key to life in my hands. This key is love and i will use it wise and make my world better with it. 

I regret many things i done in the past, but i realized that all wrong decisions were the price for my life how it is now. I mean it was worth the price. One look in the eyes of the girl which sit only 2 meters away tell me that i am right with all i done. 

I discussed with some people in the last days if it is worth to die for love. Sure it is, but why should i ? I mean die for love is easy. I would do without doubt. Jump in front of a bullet, spring in a river to save the one you love is not much and only cost life and that is really a little price. So what you can do if you are in love and want to show it. Not die for the one, live for the one of a million. Give time to the person you love, stay alive and fight at her / his side.

Time is the key to find the ultimate love we all search. I mean it took many years to find someone i can love. Call me obsessed, but i will protect my love with every action i do in my live. I will do anything to ensure that this will last far behind death and all the time. Love once connected can not be divided.

Why i regret some in my life anyway ? I regret that i am not able to act like i feel many times. I want to show my love so much more than i do. 

I want divide my heart to gave more time, more love, more kindness and more feelings than that i already heave. 

But all i can do is write this words, and share it with you all. I hope some of you will smile while reading it.

I wish you a nice week and a lovely sunday.

Love will change the live, even yours if you believe .....

Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan has gone to far ?

Hello Friends,


another sunday another time for Sadako-chan ^^
I will not let you wait to long so i show you the pic.

Today Sada-chan is blushing cause she not know what to do.

The thought today is about my little world i build in the web again.

In the meantime the presence of G+ has really become a meltdown part of my real life. The experiment to merge the worlds is a fully work in progress and i am not divide much from that what people call physical reality and that what is called the virtual one.

I am sure that the future is digital. Digital world is not very different from the real world. I mean all i see when i go outside my flat is electrical impulses from my ears and eyes interpreted from my brain. That is called reality. 

So if i look at the web, it is a big neural web of electricity and data. Like the reality. Sure i can divide those worlds but i think if we go further and further those both worlds will meltdown more and more.

Projects like Google Glass or the many AR apps on my phone prove this day by day.

Did i fear such a future ? I think no, cause a machine is more trustworthy than a person. A machine only do what she is made for. A person do this too, but if a machine do this we call it work, if a person do it, we call it "selfish".

Machines are made for serve the mankind, humans only serve herself. Thats a fact i learned day by day.

So the only way is to meltdown this worlds so we can serve ourself AND mankind.

Interesting project, agree ?

This week was a bit thoughtful about my digital part of the world. I mean real world out there is full of problems and violence. I try to keep my digital world free of that. People act selfish and violent in the web, but i try to keep my little digital world in harmony and peace.

This week i broke 2 important rules in the web i set myself.

First: I was unfaithful with my digital being - but that is just for a roleplay and a part of my plot, so i can handle it *grin*

Second and that is more important i broke my law to listen to everyone to make the life of them better.

I decided to block out the violence and pain from my world and let the fun only inside. This means i have to change massive in my contact scheme i have in my world. 

I will play god in my own world. I know this will go very far into the fictional parts of my existence, but i love this.

In my youth i had my own world where i live in in which i flee when reality become to hard. I left this world when meet my wife, and i never missed it. But now i could reenter this world again with my wife as company, and that is a good thing. My old world waited for me, but it changed. It become bigger, faster and more cruel. The peaceful place become to big. Are we gone to far with all this ?

I don´t know. And i must ask another question now. Is it necessary to fight to protect the peace ?

I always say NO in the past, but with the help of my digital world i changed my mind a bit. 

It is worth to fight to keep the balance and the peace.

Yes, this was a journey in the digital world, but if you read it carefully then you see, this little world i created for me, is not much different from the world in front of your window. 

Both worlds are ruled by Love and Time.

So love more and let the world become a better place with a little time,

Shinji-kun

For my wife - happy 9th wedding anniversary

Hello Denise,


this posting is just for you.
Today exactly 9 years ago i get married to the most perfect girl around the universe, the one out of a million, i got married to YOU <3

It is the biggest honor in my live to be loved by you. Every day at your side is worth living and i can not give back what you give to me, even i try for million years. 

To have you at my side is the best thing ever happened to me, and to meet you was no pure luck, it was fate. 

I met you in last life and will wait for you in the next, cause love is a ribbon which can not be torn apart by death. In the deepest places of my heart i know you are the source of all my love.

There was never be another girl in my life and and there will never be one. You were the first and the last, and i am proud like hell that you are the only one in my life.

To live and die for you, now and forever. I have not much to give, just my love, my life and my heart, which all lay now in your hands. 

9 years were just the start, 9 lives the next step and 9 times infinity the goal. We will be together forever, that is what i believe and what i promise to you.

I wish you a happy 9th wedding anniversary. 

Forever in LOVE <3

your husband 

Sada-chan should take it easy....

Hello Friends,


as it is sunday it is always time for Sada-chan. I was on a little trip yesterday so i am still tired and today the weather is great so i will not write long, cause i want enjoy the sun.
But here is the weekly Sada-chan:

Look a bit scare, but beautiful at the same time. I love this pic, don´t know where i found it but it is well made ^^

This week was ok, nothing special but ok. But sometimes i come to a point where i found out that i take all a bit to serious. 

I take it to serious when i get critics, no matter if this happens IRL or in DL (digital life). 

I take is to serious when i think about my relationship and about my jealousy but those points i could not lower, even i wish i could.

And i think i take this whole meltdown of digital and real life sometimes a bit to far. 

My intentions was that i take the best of both worlds and melt it down, and i am a bit shocked how well this works if you live it straight and put both worlds together in the daily life. 

But sometimes i think it go a bit to far and i take it all to serious and lose sense for what people call reality.

So it was a helpful event that i had a little quarrel with my wife this week, which causes a digital cutoff for an whole afternoon. I mean really a cut-off. No internet, no smartphone, no connection to digital world.
In this 7 hours i missed the other world for sure, but not to much. Reality is still the best.
The life between reality and digital is always close on the edge between far and "to far", if you know what i mean. But at this 7 hours i found out that i still in the "far" position and could live really well without that whole stuff is i want it.

But i come to another conclusion in the end. I should not decide to stop or to continue my little experiment of meltdown both worlds. It makes much fun for sure. I should only take it more easy and more as a little fun. Not take all 100 % when 98 % are perfect too ;)

As for all in life. As long as it make fun it is a good think, no matter how much it kills time. But if you think it interrupt your life, take a short break and watch back and decide wise.
I did this the last days and i decided to go on with this way but a bit , a little bit more relaxed.


Wish you a nice and lovely sunday,


Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan is faithful....

Good morning my friends,



it is sunday and it is time for Sada-chan ^^
You want her .... you get her <3

          (source devianart - raylyn96)

You see even Sada-chan enjoy love cause as i always say: love rule the world. Not only the bright places, it rule even the dark.

Dark love, is this possible ? Sure it is. Think about Shinji and Asuka for example in Evangelion. Sometimes you think Asuka hate Shinji from her deepest part of her hart, but if you look behind the scenes you see that is a "dark part" of love. If you reduce it to just 4 letters it is still love and in is a force that rule all our actions. 

But today i want not write about love, i want write about "to be faithful".

In a modern world this is not "up to date" to be faithful anymore. People marry and people get divorced, and inside a marriage many ppl divide love from what some ppl call "physical love" (sex if you want the word clear).

I personally can not divide love from love if you know what i mean. A marriage is a vow to be faithful to a person for the rest of the live, that is my deepest thought, let´s call it a part of my religion (my religion is love not more, maybe a bit buddhism but that is an other topic).

You all know when a heart is bound to another it can not be divided anymore. sure many ppl will disagree with that, but my opinion is another.

If you can divide your heart from one you love, you have never loved deep enough.

Call me extreme but i am bound to the heart of my wife and i am faithful until death, cause i vowed this to my wife the day we married. 

Did i ever thought about to be unfaithful ? sure i did, many times, but i always come to a conclusion which is very simple.

Maybe it is fun to "try out" to be close to another one, but this fun will end and it will destroy so much that the biggest fun is not worth this all. Nothing can be so much pleasure to risk that.

You all must know my wife was the only girl in my life, so i have no comparison to others. But i enjoy to be faithful to her anyway. Why i must compare if i know i have the best of all ?

I mean a sweet cake maybe taste good, but it make fat anyway, so why taste it at all ? I have my own sweetest cake and it already make me bloated - bloated with endless love and a iron will to stay faithful all the time.

So call me closed minded, but unfaithful people are not worth to trust in them. I have no problem if both partners are agree to be open and share love with others, that is not the point (i personally can never do that, i am to jealous for that !). But be unfaithful to your partner without agreement is the most disgusting thing out in this world.

An unfaithful person deserve no trust it deserve just pure disdain. Yeah those people are worthless in my eyes, just junk. A person who cheat his love for a little fun is a person who kill his own friend if he had pleasure with this action.

So if you not be able to be faithful, no problem, but not vow this to anyone and break the trust. 

I thought about this topic before my marriage. It took me only a part of a second to make my decision. I will be faithful my whole life, cause i am happy with what i have. Thoughts are free, but actions not. 

And i will act honest and with love and keep desires there where the not hurt anyone, in my dreams ;)

With this words i say goodbye and wish you a lovely sunday,

Shinji-kun

(this posting was inspired by my actual role-play again. Wow i love this so much, it make me smile every day and inspire my in my real life ^^)

Sada-chan wins .....

Hello Friends,


it is sunday and to be honest i had no topic for my weekly Sada-chan. But thanks to my friends +Matt Virgo and +Otaku Madness at G+ i can write about my fav. topic (i hope you two understand the fun, and at the moment your actings make me smile the whole day).

I can write about #loveandvictory teached by +Alice Margatroid again. 

Oh at this moment i realize that G+ become really a big part of my life. I have funny times there with all the guys. Sure i have a real life and prefer that, but the fictional world i build there cheer me up every day, and it is nothing wrong with that.

Back to topic ^^

Let´s write about love and that love is always a win, even you lose ^^

The two funny ppl here have a challenge to avoid interaction for a few days, and sure they are no lovers, but anyway it bring the topic up which is a real controversy in many relationships.

Many people think that "free space" is a key to a working relationship, but i personally think it is a total stupid thing. For example, my wife and i are married almost 9 years and have not a minimum of free space. That´s not easy sometimes to live without privacy, but believe me. If you share all the good moments and the bad is the best way to improve your live. I mean my wife know my darkest desires and stand by my side anyway. There can not be a deeper way of love i think. And she know the brightest dreams i have and dream them with me. And with that knowledge we can make our dreams come true every day.

"Free space" is not a good stuff for relationships. Many of that what called a "modern relationship" where every partner has his own friends and own hobbies, broke apart in the last years when i look to the people i know. All this people said to me "Shinji, you are too close with your wife, give her more space". But i prove every day that my way is right and they are wrong. Best example was my uncle. He had nice family with a kid and a wonderful wife. He always say to me that i am to close, and that will not be good.

After all he cheated to his wife and broke apart his family with a co-worker. His son become a broken kid and his wife is in desperations. That all start when my uncle stop to work together with his wife in the company and have free space and meet this other co-worker.

Free space sucks !!! To be close is the key. Relationships need no break or distance, it need trust and nearness ^^

So friends, if you think you must prove how stable your partnership is cause you can keep distance (for info, a job is not worth do apart from a partner, there are thousands of jobs but only "one in a million"), think how much prove of love it is to share anything.

I live this way of love every day, and i will keep that way until i die. 

Thanks to my two friends for giving me this idea to this love-drunken posting again.

Remember, if you choose love you always the winner in the end and gain victory ^^

MORE LOVE MORE WORLD,

Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan define herself.....

Hello Friends,



it´s sunday and we are back with Sada-chan ^^

You missed her last week ? Here she is for you and have a smile to light up your sunday....

I was lazy this week, i know but i am who i am and so forgive me to take a break from time to time.

I have many cute girls for you and many purrrrfect girls will arrive soon. A lot waifu (Asuka) and many others ;)

So what about we write today ? I will write about a bit over myself, or yourself ?!?

I want to ask you, how you define yourself. I not mean what kind of clothes you wear or what car you drive (personally not care about clothes and drive a very small economic car), i mean what define you most ?

In my thing is the definition simple. I define me through love and victory from this. 

Many years i was sad, but after carry love out to this world i feel better most times and ppl around me feel better, so thats what define me. Give love and get love define myself. 

Another point is that i can express feelings better when i write than when i talk. Writing helps to calm me down and find inner peace. Like a meditation or a long walk through a park. 

Third thing is that i am not envy ppl for there materials or their success. I am happy when i see some of my co-workes buy a new car or build a new house. Many ppl say the same, but you see they envy the other for his new stuff. But i am really happy when i see the other gain victory and i smile with him.

Love, be happy and calm down, that´s my 3 keys to a good life. The 3rd point not always work *grin* But i try to improve.

So what´s the stuff which define your personality. Take a good cup of tea and take a little break to think about it.It´s worth the time, cause after think about that stuff i feel good and i think a have done many stuff right in my life.

So, i will try to show you some cuteness today so look after the page later, i am sure you will find a nice girl ^^

Have a nice sunday, and be lovely to each other ^^

Shinji-kun

Time to remember and to hope....

Hello my friends around the world,


normally Sunday is time for Sada-chan but she take the weekend off for a special reason.
In a few hours in Japan is the 11th march again. The day which has changed this beautiful country for all time.
5 Minutes have changed everything in Japan. The earth shaking and change everything.
The tsunami killed much people in a few moments, but the real disaster starts in a moment short after the quake.
The nuclear meltdown will affect Japan and it´s people for many hundreds of years and will cost more lives than the quake itself.

This is Denko, the formerly mascot of Tepco energy company. Many of you would ask why i use her to make this post. Look at her eyes. She cry cause of that what her company has made out of Japan and so she get the place in this posting.

I will use this posting to show my honor and respect to the people of Japan. This people has proven that they never give up and never despair. Fight and rebuild the country, thats the soul of Japan and thats a thing they can be very proud of.

Yeah and thats me showing my support for JP. Hope this country will regain it´s old power and strength again and will switch of this risky technology as soon at they can. Cause one thing is clear. The earth will not stop shaking in the future. So i hope this never happens again.

I myself bow with respect to all the people of Japan and hold on this day in silence for all the victims of this even, so i will set off all my activities on the web as a little sign of respect and honor for the japanese people.

I just want to show you one last thing before. As many of you know i am a big Anime Fan, so i am impressed that Anime helped the people in daily life after the quake. Ever noticed that the Operation Yashima form Evangelion become true after the 3-11 ?

Yes, it was set up by the people to bridge the energy shortage in Japan. So anime become reality, even it was cause a disaster, it show me that anime can give hope and help people to smile again.

The website is still online if you want have a look, i show you some pics of it.

Before i close this posting i will show my personal fave picture of a "never give up pose" to cheer up the people of Japan.

Asuka show the support and hope that the many people which are still affected by this disaster will have a better live day by day.

Our soul is with Japan and it´s people, so hold on a moment and honor them.

ありがとう

Shinji-kun and the german NERV-Crew