Sada-chan enjoy distant normality.....

Hello friends,



after a week vacation, Sada-chan is back for you ^^

The last weeks was easy and relaxed, nothing special and nothing bad. Just my normal daily going like always. Work, a few days vacation and a trip to Milano. A normal life for Shinji-kun.
This is how my life going in the last two years. My life changed since 2010 and my last trip to JP. Sure i still have the feeling that i must go out of this town and search for a new start somewhere else. But in the end Freiburg, the town i live, is not bad, and the job is halfway good and nice paid, so i come to a simple conclusion. What i have is a good thing. I see that normality can be an nice stuff. You will realize that if you are in the situation when normality is almost lost, and things your thought as "normal" are in danger to get lost for your life.
So i personally satisfied with what i have. Sure i would prefer to travel to JP again and get out of this town, but in the end it would make me happy just for a short time. I have an eye to the world with me. With my phone and my computer i have a peek to the world anytime, can travel to the whole world with a klick on my browser and talk to people far away.
Sharing life and information with other is like to go their way with them a bit. Watch the world from distance, make the real distance a bit shrinking from time to time.
My own adventure is here in my home. Family, a walk to the city center, or just relax at home can be a great thing, especially when you have an eye to the world daily. I am sure more connected to the web than a normal person, but this has a reason for sure. I found my love, and therefore my life with that medium, so it is natural that i see a bit more than just the web when i sit on the screen.
The only thing i must learn is to calm down a bit, and take things more easy, but i am sure with the fact that normality isn´t that bad, it will be possible to calm down a bit more.

I mean the future lays in my own hands, if it is just digital or real, for me not really much difference. Sure the medium is another but the emotions attached to are almost the same. The world you see is what you want to see.


I wish you all a nice sunday,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan take it easy again....

Hello Friends,


it is Sunday and HOT (i love summer) so Sada-chan need a bit cool down. Here she is !

Many noticed that the blog is become more quiet and the updates are become a bit rare. That has many reasons. I still get much figures, but i am not in the mood to write stories at the moment, and just posting pics in not my style. At least a few words should be written to the girls, cause if i do not, it is just a figure blog like many others ;)
Another reason is that my wife and me (yeah i am a otaku with a family !) are try to create our own impact, which means we want a little Ikari in our life (a cute little tsun Asuka, or a sweet Shinji). So i spend more energy on my real life.
And last but not least, my world meltdown project in our roleplay need much time. So you see i am a bit busy.

I hope you still enjoy my blog, and i will show figures again in the future, but the updates will not follow a frequent day in the week. I just post when i have time and i am in the mood to do so.
And the 1,5-2k visits per month show me that you still like my blog.
Thanks for visit my little world and i hope you still like it.

A few days ago i had a discussion about real and online world with my co-workers. The could not understand that 99% of my friends are online. You know i met my wife online, so i am addicted to internet, that´s why i spend much time here. And after so many years i can say that online friendship is strong, maybe stronger that real ones. See, in my current situation where i switch my dreams from traveling all over the world to family i not miss the change to see the world. Thanks to my friends all over the planet i just must start a hangout to travel to the world within a seconds. See i love to be connected to the world without leaving my house. People call this crazy, but it is not crazy, it is just a new age we live in.
And i know so much ppl online that anytime i need advice, or just a friend to talk, someone is here for me.
So the digital world help me whenever the real world is cold.
That is why i keep this blog. I thought about closing it cause of the lack of time, but i think it is good to leave my footprints in the better part of existence... the digital one.


A lovely Sunday to all of you <3

Shinji-kun

Oh this pic is just great. Watch it ^^

Sada-chan trading dreams....

Hello Friends,


SUNDAY - time for Sadako ^^ YES YES <3

Sorry it is not halloween or something but i just i love the pic.

See friends, world is about love, that is what i always. Love, dreams, and hope. The 3 basements of a good live.

I love my wife, i dream of a family, and i hope for a future. See i had a dream in the past. Those who know the blog from the start know that my dream was to move to Japan and live the live i only dream. Want to be in a land where i belong to and live the live i like.
But time changes and dream change too.

I quit my dreams about moving. So this blog come to an end after all. No no you will see more unboxings soon and read my weird stuff. But the original reason for this blog ends today. My dreams will now be moved to reality. I trade one dream for another. I trade Japan for a new life. I trade my weird attitude for some serious. I trade the careless life for responsibility. I will have a new dream.
I will expand my love. And how could i do better than create new life with the person which i love more than ever.
I will have a kid soon. Let´s hope that fate is nice to me and fulfill this dream. I can´t wait to hold the ultimate prove of my love to my wife in my own hands. The moment when time stand still is not longer on the bridge over Sumida river in Tokyo. The moment when my time stand still will be the birth of my kid now. A journey for the rest of my lifetime. The only options to make my love to my wife deeper and stronger.
Two become three. The we way we go together we will share with the result of our love.
You know that love doubles when shared. I will spread this to the world.
I will teach my kid that if you act with love in the heart and live your dreams you maybe fail sometimes, but if you act with hate you fail for sure anytime.

People, i will write more about my family in the future. I give you my hand and guide you REAL LIFE in the world of my dreams. I am sure the day my dream come true is close, soooo close. I have hope in my heart and i am sure i can create a dream you all can see soon.

Wish me luck, love more and make this world a lovely place for all of us.

Shinji-kun <3

Sada-chan to infinity ....

Hello Friends,

it is sunday but it is not just a sunday, this sunday is an important one. But before i start i have found a cute and lovely Sada-chan for you. See and smile.

I am thoughtful at this sunday. This weekend could be the last of my old life i have. My family plans are going in the final state and next week becomes a important one.
I sit here and i think about my future. I trade my old dreams for new one´s and i hope that my future will be bright and wonderful even i see some clouds at the sky. But that´s not bad. Without rain there is no rainbow and without night there is no sunrise. So not bad to have a problem from time to time. But be honest, we all dream from a perfect future right ?

Last week was a sad one. I saw a dream die and a rule of my own life failing. I saw how a a family broke up. See that happens 1000 times, but in this case it broke my heart a bit, because it was the base of my own dreams. I mean if a perfect one break up how should my imperfect base work ?
My little family, wife and me, we are for sure not a stable base for a family. We both are a bit childish and we both live big dream even we go to far some times. But with the dream we both have we thought we can do it. Motivated due to the other family i changed my attitude and thought about my inconstant life and thought that with 33 it is time to start a halfway stable life, with kids and i realized that one of my biggest fear of the past, to get old in my hometown and with the same job like my mom´s life was, would become my future if i do the last step with my wife. I thought this fear is not bad, cause i saw that in another case it brings so much luck that i not fear this normal future anymore. But then i saw that in the case of the other family it not worked.
No i am really unsure. See, if some family which was the base of my dream, which i thought it was perfect not working, how could mine work. Weird thinking, right ? But that´s what bother my soul now.
But in the end i come to a conclusion. The others not have one thing i have. I never doubt my love, i never doubt my relationship. Sure when wife quarrel we both say sometimes stuff that we doubt but when we look in the others eyes we are see that are just words, our soul tell us different. Wife or myself never doubt our love. That´s a big difference to others. We never think about what if .....
We never think about leaving each other, we never think about what if love dies. Cause our life´s are connected. See, after 10 Years of relationship my wife and i still do all together, we still kissing each day like teens, we still tell us "i love you" ten time a day, we still discover some new in the other from day to day. Every day i wake up and see her i tell myself: YOU GOT IT ! I am rich of love cause i have her at my side.  My life is unstable and weird, but my love is strong. My love is my base, and i am sure if all others fail, my love can fix all problems for us without failing.
That´s why so many marriage broke. They always doubt things.
Most relationships are start with doubts. Die the others love me, did this last forever ? First questions most people ask them self when starting a new love. I never asked myself those questions when i met my wife. I saw her and i know that i never let her go if she is willing to do the same.
I found out that a strong relationship just need two things. That is love and closeness.
Time together, spend in love is the biggest base for a bright future and the greatest hope in dark nights when you are in desperations.

See a few years ago a did some mistakes and told my wife at one evening: It is better you go and leave me. It is not right to stand at my side after what´s happened.
She had tears in eyes and just shake head. Without words i saw she not doubt my love, not doubt my future, and she not even think a moment about leaving me. These time back than were dark and hopeless but in this time i found out that the love of my wife is my light in the darkest moments of my life. Now i remember those bad days i have a smile on my face. Even time were hard, i was never alone. And i am sure i never will be until i die. This all is a difference to the other family which failed.
Sad moments are less sad together, good ones become better when share.

So i am sure if i go this way, may little family project will be a big win, and our love will grow with my family grow. Cause i trust in love, i trust in love till infinity, and i not doubt, i never really did.
I am just sure that it work. And if it fails, ........ no it not fails. I thought about all, and still find no problem which can make it a fail.
Love always win, and YES friends, LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED. Most people forgot this fact in theses times.
You not need money, no great job, or some like that. Money not smile, a job not give a hug.

See it and know it, tust in your love. And fight for it. If your love weakens, fight and fight and not give up. Try to get it back, and YES get it back or die trying. To give up on love is like die. So i personal can give just that advice. If you give up on your love, you give up life and the reason you be on this planet.

With this words i end my journey to my soul. Net week will set my life new from the base, but this base is strong. So i smile and look forward what my life brings to me. I see a bright future. I always wanted to be important for the world. But why for the world, it is enough to be important for the persons you love, that´s more than any other.

Love and Live are not accidental written almost similar. Live is not possible without Love <3

Have a nice sunday and a bright future,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan change point of view.....

Hello Friends,

it is Sunday and i am right here with your weekly Sada-chan ^^
YEAH look and enjoy <3

Yeah, she really look a bit pissed of, but it was worth the experience.
I alway talk about love forever and endless love and think that is the ultimate solution for every life, but today i must tell you something. I am wrong !
Yes, believe it, but all years i were wrong. If i talk with people about love and they doubt that love is the ultimate key and can solve anything i always got angry and say "you not got the point of love". I could not imagine that the "ultimate love" in not working for everybody.

How i changed my mind ? Many of you know that i live two life. One in reality, and another in the virtual world as a 20 year old Shinji-kun who is married to Asuka. So far so good. What has my role-play to do with my reality ??? Easy. In my roleplay i imagine that love not always working.

See folks, my Shinji is loving his Asuka deep, and as far as i know vice versa. And so this is not the problem. But the problem is that my Asuka his to pride and my Shinji follows his pure instincts. That all leaded to the fact that Asuka closes down and Shinji search for love outside his relationship.
As much he hate himself for that he did it anyway (sure my character is a bit a perv in the game but it is fictional, so not really a problem ).

In the end the characters broke up and Shinji suffer from the breakage. Love was not enough. You think this is all a plot. Sure you are right, but when i play in my little world i am Shinji. My real self is switched off, so every time i am in that world i gain experience, and i can use it when i am back.
With all the experience in the last month i can say that ultimate love is still the key, but not for everybody.

Every person has his own key for a happy life. Sure it always include love, but love is not always the one and only key, just one of many factors.

As for my Shinji the key would be a bit more trust in himself and his relationship. For the Asuka a bit more understanding that a person must not be perfect all the time.
If the two not understand that life and love is not always perfect the relationship break indefinitely.

So for people who doubt themselves the whole time, love is not enough. If you not love yourself, how you could love another, how could you love the love itself ?
In these days where career, money, and material stuff is more important than happiness and a good life, love fails sometimes.

So should i accept that i am wrong with my opinion that love is enough all time ? NO, i must not.
I change the world, at least the bit i can. We all can, we all can believe in love, maybe we fail, maybe not work for anyone, but if we not try wie fail for sure.

I know so many people out there who think they are better on their own. Give love a try, maybe you like it, and MAYBE it works for you ^^
The only sure thing about love it that you can not lose by sharing it, you can just win.

So you see, even in a fictional world of dream you can still learn a bit about life. If digital or real, it is just all electrical impulses interpreted by our brain ^.-


Lovely sunday for all of you,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan say thank you

Hello Friends,

Sada-chan is late but the reason is simple i wanted to wait to sa thank your for 20000 !!! hits on my blog.

WOW i am impressed friends. So fast. It took only 4 month from 10k to 20 k.
Therefore Sada-chan is here for you ^^

She try a little cosplay today for you so she look really nice and not as creepy as the other days ;)
But wait, you want her her normal way ? Sure here we go <3

Hehe, so here the creepy version *grin*


Creepy is also that i have tons of unboxings here but i am not really in the mood to post, i have to clear some topics in my private so at the moment my updates are very rare but really folks, i try to improve and come back to normal again ^^

So stay tuned, there are still so many girls to love and which want to be seen ^^


Love more and stay with me,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan´s new frontiers....

Hello Friends,

Sunday, and Sada-chan is ready again. Wanna see her. Here we go.

Hehe, i found this sketches and so i show her this way today.
It has absolutely nothing to do with my topic today.

As you guys know i plan to start my own family very soon. I perpare this like a science topic in a lab. All stuff must be perfect. Nothing will be made randomly. I want not to make mistakes. But i sometimes i think that nature will do the job better than i ever can prepare this.
My will to reproduce raise from day to day *grin*


Anyway i waited so long i could wait a few weeks longer for this actions. See, i change my life massive these days.

I personally hate change..... not hate, that is the wrong topic. I FEAR change. I am fear what could happen. Sometimes i want to do what Taka in my book did. Stop time at a perfect moment ;)
So this step i do is the biggest i ever did in my life. After i did that nothing will be the same anymore.,
I stop my dream about living somewhere else and i settle down to my town for all time. I will always be the Shinji who live in a little German town and dream about Japan and never get there gain (at least for next 10 years).

Today i had a very nice and long talk with my friend +Matt Virgo . He is a really wise guy and told me how he handle that and this gave me a bit hope and a different point of view.
Plan a family can be a bigger trip than travel to the space. Expect much and get much more.
Really i can´t wait to hold a new little Ikari in my arms and explore the world with her / him and show how precious life can be, even you just live in a little German town and dream of another places.

I think i am on the fist step to a journey which ist the biggest in my whole lifetime.
The start is now, the destination is life, and the way is love.

Never give up, and trust in those you love, and there is always a way.

I am ready, i want to have my one way ticket to a bright future.
Love is here, the rest we find on the way,


Shinji-kun

Sada-chan hate change ? ....

Hello Friends,

sunday and therefore another time of Sada-chan. 
Wanna see her... here she is ^^

    (Loooool to funny so i must post her - actually i work on a 13 " MBP)


Today i bring up a topic which guide me since i was born and which will guide me until until i die.
I talk from the fact that everything change. I personally know that we can stop the time, and the fact that things change... but sometimes i really wish that i can slow down the world a bit.

I always thought i can live this live how it is until the rest of my day. Live careless and free till the day of infinity, but facts changes and life go on.  I hate that the world changes. If a situation is good why change some stuff ? Why ever try to get things better and better if the are good already.

I mean if we try to improve day by day, we can never be proud of the tings we have, right ?
What we have is precious and we should sometimes stay still and watch back and smile and be happy with all the goals we reached until today.

World is running faster and faster and sometimes i would stop just all. One of the main topics if my book is the fact that the main hero want to hold a perfect moment for infinity ?
Would i do this in my current life ? I think no, but i want to keep some facts of my current life in the current state.

Now i am on the edge of a major change of my life, and as much i fear it, i am also curious what happens next. So maybe change is not bad at all. In the end i have my past always with me, deep in my hear. My memory is one of my most precious treasure ^^

I hope my future will be as much exciting and bright as my past or present. If this come true, i will be happy and always smile. And if the future is not as bright as now i have a perfect person at my side which make it bright for me again.

With this thought i can sleep every night with a smile on my face. Love in heart and ideas in mind, that is the key to a good future.


Love more, live better,

Shinji-kun 

Sada-chan take a vacation .....

Hello Friends,

i am a bit busy so i take a little break. I present you some new figures and Sada-chan again soon ^^

Thanks your patience <3

Love everyday,

Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan is serious ..... ?

Hello Friends,


Sunday is time for Sada-chan.
Here she is, and she is sweet ;)

Today i am a bit unsure. I mean i am still working on develop my family.
See, i am sure i want kids now and sure i can handle all the problems which could happen. But after so many years of doubts on myself and doubts of my wife if i mean it serious we both have a bit problems to take some things serious.
I mean i think wife say to easy "yes i am sure" and i say to easy "yes i am honest now".
See, to much fun can make trouble if it comes to the serious part.

Anyway i must try to take it serious, and wife must try to trust i have change about my opinion to have a family now.
A step we both can do now ? We will never regret it if we do it ? We are absolute sure for all time ?
No, i donßt think so. There is no "absolute sure for all time" in the world, there is only an "absulute sure now". One exception of course. We both sure that love last forever.
If you see it from this point we are sure about the kid. I mean if we give him love this works on the kid too. We never regret our love, so we will never regret the kid, right ?
A simple logive. As said many times. If you include love in a thing ,you can master almost everything.

I always thought in jealousy of a kid, cause my wife will give love to children, and not only to me anymore. But i am changed my mind rapidly, cause i learned one sure thing. Love does not lower if you share it, it doubles and come back twice as strong ^^


So i am serious about this all ? I think so, but i am not sure. But if i close eyes and listen to my heart and think of all what could happen, i have a smile on my face, so not bad, right ?


I wish you a niceand lovely sunday <3

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan miss the old times.....

Good morning friends,



it is Sunday in Gensokyo and i am happy to transmit my Sada-chan live and instantly to the real world to you ^^
Here she comes.

Some of you would as what is Gensokyo.... very simple, a fictive world based on the game Touhou. It is my home now, as part of the "melt down both worlds" project. You know i am still try to mix my reality with my fictional and it works more or less. 

I mean live if much more exciting if you extend the senses and expand your reality. 

At the moment my chracter is in a condition i hope my real life will never get in. I must deal with a situation when i can not handle and some others too. Sometimes i really ask myself if my project not go to far ? But when i see that i change my real life in complete different directions cause of my actions than i am really surprised how dreams can change your daily life.

The posting from the last weekend for e.x. (remember the question to wife for set up a family) is a direct results of my thoughts of the digital world. I never could imagine a family, but see a family grow just digital changed my mind, and so i use many of my things i learned in my world inside the web for outside world. Believe it or not, it affect my life in positive ways. Digital world is a practice without the risk to fail, and that give safety for my reality. Cool thing, agree ???

Anyway that is not the point today. I am today a bit in the "i miss old times mode". Inspired by my current plot and my life in real world. 

Life become fast and rush aways like a highspeed train. I mean, it is may 12th, and in my feelings the new year start just a few day ago. Time rush, and so rush my life. Not get me wrong, i LOVE to become older, i enjoy the days, but it is very interesting to see how all become fast and the live-span become shorter. I miss the quiet days from the past sometimes. World is centered on go on, and sometimes i miss the point where world stand still for a short time. These moments become rage. I personally think we should all take a short break from time to time and think about the past and remember the things we already had. The good and the bad facts. I personally miss to see the world, my time runs so fast that i not left my hometown for more than a year. I am really enjoy to live here, but my heart want to see the world again, but this dreams are short and not last long after they finished. So i decided to travel, but in an other way. I start the journey which last a lifetime, i start a family and if i want to travel i go in my little world i have here. 

That is a good solution. But i still miss the times back than, my trips to Tokyo, or Paris, just to be in another world for a few days. OK i plan to travel to UK this year, and that trip will end the my part of carefree life. I bound myself to my hometown and set my priority to another thing. But it is wrong to miss it from time to time ? I don´t know. 

So a part of me will always miss the past, cause it was a big part of my life. But if i look in the future i see a bigger part of my life in advance and i have a smile on my face thinking of that. 

I miss the old times, but i am not sad when i remember of it. I cherish the old times cause it gave me energy and hope for the future.

I wish you a nice sunday out there in the reality.

Love what you do now cause in a moment it is past,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan is into family.....

Hello Friends,

today Sada-chan is a bit late but i enjoyed the the first really sunny day in this year so i set IRL higher than my world here, forgive me folks.

Anyway Sada-chan is here for you, and today she is not alone. See and smile:

Why i chose a family pic on my blog ? Simple: Those who read my postings more often know, that Sada-chan is always a reflection of my feelings and very personal.

In the last weeks my emotional world changed massive. I think it all started when i watched my friend +Matt Virgo on G+ posting a picture where he was baking some cake with his nice daughter. 

I must be honest. I am a careless guy which never thought of kids or a family, until that posting. 

I must really say i always was against having kids and want to enjoy life alone with my wife. I was jealous that my wife will gave a part of her love to a kid and i am not her number one anymore. Yes, thats what i think. I wanted my life the way it was for all the time. Live without much responsibility and  without any problems a kid can cause.

But after seeing my friends pics of him and his daughter i changed massive. I followed every of Matt´s posting with passion, especial about the pregnancy of his wife wit the little Itashi. It make me smile every day when he told to us and waited with his family for the birth of his newborn.

I lived a part of his life when watching this new life begin. Yes Matt, your little one, your daughter and your family changed my attitude about priorities massive.

I really thought hard about what i want to do now, and i set my priority to another level. My old goal was to see Japan again, to travel around the world and have much fun. But i must say this is not longer important to me, cause i could reach this dreams and then the are short and then fade away. I wished so much to walk over Komagata-bashi bridge again, the place where the life and the time is born, but i realized that i just must close my eyes to be there instantly. I still can feel the sun from the last morning i stand on this bridge when i close my eyes, and i can feel the slight breeze then. The view of Sumida river and the mornings sounds of Tokyo. Oh how i missed that place. But i never left it for real, a part of my soul is still there, and i have a smile on my face now when i think about it.

So i can say "good bye dreams it was nice to have you" and i can do it with a smile.

I want to start the travel of my lifetime without leaving my door. I don´t want to see the place where life come from, i want to see life which grows, i want to have a family. I want to see the miracle if new life with my own eyes, i want to hear the first heartbeats of a kid on a CTG, i want to feel the first kicks of a little one when i touch the belly of my wife, and i want to see how my family grows. 

Yes Denise, you not take me serious, cause i speak still like a baka in this topic, but i am deadly serious now. I want to go this step with you, the sooner the better. No doubt, no fear, no other dreams are so important than to share this precious moments. We mastered so much in our past 10 Years together, so this new journey should be very easy for us to handle. As long as we side by side we can do that with a smile on our face and with love in our hearts.

See, other people has a weird life too, and our personal situation is all other then optimal, but i am think that all which is need to do this is deep love. I have not the big money, i have not the perfect social status, and we sure live a life which is all other than normal, but i am sure we both can do this if we just believe in it. 

I never asked you proper if you would marry me. I just decided this and you agreed, and this was not romantic at all, and i am very sorry about this. But now i will ask you something really important, and i do it now and here in the web.

Why i do it this way ? First is that our love grown up in this media, and second i can write better than i talk, cause here speaks my soul only.

Want you have a family with me, would you make me the most happy guy in the world and go this step with me ? Want you take the first step to the journey of my lifetime ? 

I love you with all my heart, and i will support you as long as i can, you will never be alone. Love, grows day by day, so let´s our love grow a bit more <3

This was a very personal posting and i hope you all smile a bit with me now ^^

Love it is worth everything,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan regrets sometime.....

Hello Friends,


sunday is coming and the is again time for Sadako-chan. Wanna see her, i show her.

Today i am a bit in a strange mood. I don´t know why but i think about my past and things long ago.

Lost friends, lost places, lost memories, and lost love this all is a part of my past.

Why i think about past, maybe because of my current role-play, which is still a big part of my live, maybe cause of the lousy weather outside and a strange dream i had when i had my afternoon nap today.

Am i prod of my past ? Sure i am. I mean i have a great wife and i plan kids, and i will have a family in the near future (yes you see my lovely wife i am nit joking i think about that day by day !). I am say that i am the most proud and happy guy i can imagine, but still i think i had could done better in the past.

I disappointed people and sometimes i disappointed myself. I passed on dreams which were in reach and i not take many changes i get. But all this lead to the fact that i am who i am. 

I love my life and how i am now. I am an sick man with not so much energy which i want have, but i am happy with it. I never give up, and i am strong, cause i have the ultimate key to life in my hands. This key is love and i will use it wise and make my world better with it. 

I regret many things i done in the past, but i realized that all wrong decisions were the price for my life how it is now. I mean it was worth the price. One look in the eyes of the girl which sit only 2 meters away tell me that i am right with all i done. 

I discussed with some people in the last days if it is worth to die for love. Sure it is, but why should i ? I mean die for love is easy. I would do without doubt. Jump in front of a bullet, spring in a river to save the one you love is not much and only cost life and that is really a little price. So what you can do if you are in love and want to show it. Not die for the one, live for the one of a million. Give time to the person you love, stay alive and fight at her / his side.

Time is the key to find the ultimate love we all search. I mean it took many years to find someone i can love. Call me obsessed, but i will protect my love with every action i do in my live. I will do anything to ensure that this will last far behind death and all the time. Love once connected can not be divided.

Why i regret some in my life anyway ? I regret that i am not able to act like i feel many times. I want to show my love so much more than i do. 

I want divide my heart to gave more time, more love, more kindness and more feelings than that i already heave. 

But all i can do is write this words, and share it with you all. I hope some of you will smile while reading it.

I wish you a nice week and a lovely sunday.

Love will change the live, even yours if you believe .....

Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan has gone to far ?

Hello Friends,


another sunday another time for Sadako-chan ^^
I will not let you wait to long so i show you the pic.

Today Sada-chan is blushing cause she not know what to do.

The thought today is about my little world i build in the web again.

In the meantime the presence of G+ has really become a meltdown part of my real life. The experiment to merge the worlds is a fully work in progress and i am not divide much from that what people call physical reality and that what is called the virtual one.

I am sure that the future is digital. Digital world is not very different from the real world. I mean all i see when i go outside my flat is electrical impulses from my ears and eyes interpreted from my brain. That is called reality. 

So if i look at the web, it is a big neural web of electricity and data. Like the reality. Sure i can divide those worlds but i think if we go further and further those both worlds will meltdown more and more.

Projects like Google Glass or the many AR apps on my phone prove this day by day.

Did i fear such a future ? I think no, cause a machine is more trustworthy than a person. A machine only do what she is made for. A person do this too, but if a machine do this we call it work, if a person do it, we call it "selfish".

Machines are made for serve the mankind, humans only serve herself. Thats a fact i learned day by day.

So the only way is to meltdown this worlds so we can serve ourself AND mankind.

Interesting project, agree ?

This week was a bit thoughtful about my digital part of the world. I mean real world out there is full of problems and violence. I try to keep my digital world free of that. People act selfish and violent in the web, but i try to keep my little digital world in harmony and peace.

This week i broke 2 important rules in the web i set myself.

First: I was unfaithful with my digital being - but that is just for a roleplay and a part of my plot, so i can handle it *grin*

Second and that is more important i broke my law to listen to everyone to make the life of them better.

I decided to block out the violence and pain from my world and let the fun only inside. This means i have to change massive in my contact scheme i have in my world. 

I will play god in my own world. I know this will go very far into the fictional parts of my existence, but i love this.

In my youth i had my own world where i live in in which i flee when reality become to hard. I left this world when meet my wife, and i never missed it. But now i could reenter this world again with my wife as company, and that is a good thing. My old world waited for me, but it changed. It become bigger, faster and more cruel. The peaceful place become to big. Are we gone to far with all this ?

I don´t know. And i must ask another question now. Is it necessary to fight to protect the peace ?

I always say NO in the past, but with the help of my digital world i changed my mind a bit. 

It is worth to fight to keep the balance and the peace.

Yes, this was a journey in the digital world, but if you read it carefully then you see, this little world i created for me, is not much different from the world in front of your window. 

Both worlds are ruled by Love and Time.

So love more and let the world become a better place with a little time,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan should take it easy....

Hello Friends,


as it is sunday it is always time for Sada-chan. I was on a little trip yesterday so i am still tired and today the weather is great so i will not write long, cause i want enjoy the sun.
But here is the weekly Sada-chan:

Look a bit scare, but beautiful at the same time. I love this pic, don´t know where i found it but it is well made ^^

This week was ok, nothing special but ok. But sometimes i come to a point where i found out that i take all a bit to serious. 

I take it to serious when i get critics, no matter if this happens IRL or in DL (digital life). 

I take is to serious when i think about my relationship and about my jealousy but those points i could not lower, even i wish i could.

And i think i take this whole meltdown of digital and real life sometimes a bit to far. 

My intentions was that i take the best of both worlds and melt it down, and i am a bit shocked how well this works if you live it straight and put both worlds together in the daily life. 

But sometimes i think it go a bit to far and i take it all to serious and lose sense for what people call reality.

So it was a helpful event that i had a little quarrel with my wife this week, which causes a digital cutoff for an whole afternoon. I mean really a cut-off. No internet, no smartphone, no connection to digital world.
In this 7 hours i missed the other world for sure, but not to much. Reality is still the best.
The life between reality and digital is always close on the edge between far and "to far", if you know what i mean. But at this 7 hours i found out that i still in the "far" position and could live really well without that whole stuff is i want it.

But i come to another conclusion in the end. I should not decide to stop or to continue my little experiment of meltdown both worlds. It makes much fun for sure. I should only take it more easy and more as a little fun. Not take all 100 % when 98 % are perfect too ;)

As for all in life. As long as it make fun it is a good think, no matter how much it kills time. But if you think it interrupt your life, take a short break and watch back and decide wise.
I did this the last days and i decided to go on with this way but a bit , a little bit more relaxed.


Wish you a nice and lovely sunday,


Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan is faithful....

Good morning my friends,



it is sunday and it is time for Sada-chan ^^
You want her .... you get her <3

          (source devianart - raylyn96)

You see even Sada-chan enjoy love cause as i always say: love rule the world. Not only the bright places, it rule even the dark.

Dark love, is this possible ? Sure it is. Think about Shinji and Asuka for example in Evangelion. Sometimes you think Asuka hate Shinji from her deepest part of her hart, but if you look behind the scenes you see that is a "dark part" of love. If you reduce it to just 4 letters it is still love and in is a force that rule all our actions. 

But today i want not write about love, i want write about "to be faithful".

In a modern world this is not "up to date" to be faithful anymore. People marry and people get divorced, and inside a marriage many ppl divide love from what some ppl call "physical love" (sex if you want the word clear).

I personally can not divide love from love if you know what i mean. A marriage is a vow to be faithful to a person for the rest of the live, that is my deepest thought, let´s call it a part of my religion (my religion is love not more, maybe a bit buddhism but that is an other topic).

You all know when a heart is bound to another it can not be divided anymore. sure many ppl will disagree with that, but my opinion is another.

If you can divide your heart from one you love, you have never loved deep enough.

Call me extreme but i am bound to the heart of my wife and i am faithful until death, cause i vowed this to my wife the day we married. 

Did i ever thought about to be unfaithful ? sure i did, many times, but i always come to a conclusion which is very simple.

Maybe it is fun to "try out" to be close to another one, but this fun will end and it will destroy so much that the biggest fun is not worth this all. Nothing can be so much pleasure to risk that.

You all must know my wife was the only girl in my life, so i have no comparison to others. But i enjoy to be faithful to her anyway. Why i must compare if i know i have the best of all ?

I mean a sweet cake maybe taste good, but it make fat anyway, so why taste it at all ? I have my own sweetest cake and it already make me bloated - bloated with endless love and a iron will to stay faithful all the time.

So call me closed minded, but unfaithful people are not worth to trust in them. I have no problem if both partners are agree to be open and share love with others, that is not the point (i personally can never do that, i am to jealous for that !). But be unfaithful to your partner without agreement is the most disgusting thing out in this world.

An unfaithful person deserve no trust it deserve just pure disdain. Yeah those people are worthless in my eyes, just junk. A person who cheat his love for a little fun is a person who kill his own friend if he had pleasure with this action.

So if you not be able to be faithful, no problem, but not vow this to anyone and break the trust. 

I thought about this topic before my marriage. It took me only a part of a second to make my decision. I will be faithful my whole life, cause i am happy with what i have. Thoughts are free, but actions not. 

And i will act honest and with love and keep desires there where the not hurt anyone, in my dreams ;)

With this words i say goodbye and wish you a lovely sunday,

Shinji-kun

(this posting was inspired by my actual role-play again. Wow i love this so much, it make me smile every day and inspire my in my real life ^^)

Sada-chan´s family....

Hello Friends,


and happy easter ^^
Sorry i am late, but we switched to daylight saving today and this make me a lil tired, and Sada-chan is tired too and needed some coffee this morning.

After have coffee it is time to write a bit stuff as every sunday. The todays topic was brought to my cause of my G+ friends again. 

To be honest G+ become a major part of my life. I mean i am an adult with a good real life, but this second virtual world is almost as much important as the real life.

I mean my real life i have now started virtual, cause i meet my wife in the web and since that time my life is a precious thing. But with all the years the web become less important and real life turn to my prime part which was a bit sad.

Now since a few month that changed again and i have my little world back again, and the best part, i share it with my wife.

Back to the roots and to my old life. Not bad after all. 

I must say i never found friends in real life which are so trustworthy and caring than my people on the G+ network. If you are down, just write a message and get flooded with heartwarming words and offers for help, thats a great thing. Some would say: Hey thats all just virtual, but i thing different. I mean i plan to see some of this guys in the near future (yeah trip to Englang for e.x.) and i know that distance is no real problem. I know from my past that distance can be bridged and lead to deep friendship and even to love (yeah my wife is the best example for that !).

I had a talk with my friend Matt a few days ago after hat a little quarrel with my guys there. He was a bit sad when i leave the team of my anime page. He told me it is like i left a family, and i thought about it and think he is right. The guys there are a little bit like a real family, and after all i missed them much and turned back to become a part of the family again.

Family is an important thing. My family is very small in real life. 

There is my wife (in future one or two kids i hope), and my mum. Thats all. We all life in the same house, and are a great team. We love us and sometimes we quarrel like hell, but we all love each other and if there is a problem we have always a person which is there to hug and listen. That is the spirit of family. 

I think there is nothing more precious to have an intact family live where love rule the day. 

The family of my mum is big, she has 8 bro and sis, but all people are divided cause of differences they had. My uncle for example. He was like a dad for me when i was young (my real "dad" i rarely now), and i was a guest at his house many times when i was a kid. His son was like a lil bro and his wife like a second mum for me. After all my uncle, which i loved very much, betray his wife and this family broke up. For my bad i begun to hate my uncle from that time cause he crushed a part of my family.

The ex-wife of my uncle and his son are still my closed friends, and my uncle was mad and told me "why you get along with my ex ?".

That was the part when i break up with him fully. Cause the wife of my uncle and his son not betray the family, it was alone my uncle and so i decided to love the people which felt the spirit of family in there soul. The price was that i lost my "dad" but it was worth at all. I still have to members of my old family. But i am a bit sad anyway, cause my uncle and i had cool times back when i was a teen.

After all i learned a lesson from this broke family. I myself would ensure that my family here. My wife, my mum, our future kids, will never broke apart. I will cover this little world with all my heart and even my life. Cause my family make my strong, and if i lose a pert of it i lose a part of my soul.

So back to my G+ friends. You all become a little part of my family too, and i am very thankful for that. I am really thankful for living in the "internet age" . This medium is the key to turn distance to zero with just a few bits and bytes. 

People can share love with just type a few kind words in a keyboard, and sometimes a digital *hug" form a virtual friend can me more precious than a hug from a real person which is not honest to you.

I am finish this little journey to my thoughts about family and wish all my friends there a happy easter with heir real life families.

Take care of you people, i love you all ^^

Shinji-kun

Must share this cute family pic ^^

Sada-chan wins .....

Hello Friends,


it is sunday and to be honest i had no topic for my weekly Sada-chan. But thanks to my friends +Matt Virgo and +Otaku Madness at G+ i can write about my fav. topic (i hope you two understand the fun, and at the moment your actings make me smile the whole day).

I can write about #loveandvictory teached by +Alice Margatroid again. 

Oh at this moment i realize that G+ become really a big part of my life. I have funny times there with all the guys. Sure i have a real life and prefer that, but the fictional world i build there cheer me up every day, and it is nothing wrong with that.

Back to topic ^^

Let´s write about love and that love is always a win, even you lose ^^

The two funny ppl here have a challenge to avoid interaction for a few days, and sure they are no lovers, but anyway it bring the topic up which is a real controversy in many relationships.

Many people think that "free space" is a key to a working relationship, but i personally think it is a total stupid thing. For example, my wife and i are married almost 9 years and have not a minimum of free space. That´s not easy sometimes to live without privacy, but believe me. If you share all the good moments and the bad is the best way to improve your live. I mean my wife know my darkest desires and stand by my side anyway. There can not be a deeper way of love i think. And she know the brightest dreams i have and dream them with me. And with that knowledge we can make our dreams come true every day.

"Free space" is not a good stuff for relationships. Many of that what called a "modern relationship" where every partner has his own friends and own hobbies, broke apart in the last years when i look to the people i know. All this people said to me "Shinji, you are too close with your wife, give her more space". But i prove every day that my way is right and they are wrong. Best example was my uncle. He had nice family with a kid and a wonderful wife. He always say to me that i am to close, and that will not be good.

After all he cheated to his wife and broke apart his family with a co-worker. His son become a broken kid and his wife is in desperations. That all start when my uncle stop to work together with his wife in the company and have free space and meet this other co-worker.

Free space sucks !!! To be close is the key. Relationships need no break or distance, it need trust and nearness ^^

So friends, if you think you must prove how stable your partnership is cause you can keep distance (for info, a job is not worth do apart from a partner, there are thousands of jobs but only "one in a million"), think how much prove of love it is to share anything.

I live this way of love every day, and i will keep that way until i die. 

Thanks to my two friends for giving me this idea to this love-drunken posting again.

Remember, if you choose love you always the winner in the end and gain victory ^^

MORE LOVE MORE WORLD,

Shinji-kun ^^

Sada-chan define herself.....

Hello Friends,



it´s sunday and we are back with Sada-chan ^^

You missed her last week ? Here she is for you and have a smile to light up your sunday....

I was lazy this week, i know but i am who i am and so forgive me to take a break from time to time.

I have many cute girls for you and many purrrrfect girls will arrive soon. A lot waifu (Asuka) and many others ;)

So what about we write today ? I will write about a bit over myself, or yourself ?!?

I want to ask you, how you define yourself. I not mean what kind of clothes you wear or what car you drive (personally not care about clothes and drive a very small economic car), i mean what define you most ?

In my thing is the definition simple. I define me through love and victory from this. 

Many years i was sad, but after carry love out to this world i feel better most times and ppl around me feel better, so thats what define me. Give love and get love define myself. 

Another point is that i can express feelings better when i write than when i talk. Writing helps to calm me down and find inner peace. Like a meditation or a long walk through a park. 

Third thing is that i am not envy ppl for there materials or their success. I am happy when i see some of my co-workes buy a new car or build a new house. Many ppl say the same, but you see they envy the other for his new stuff. But i am really happy when i see the other gain victory and i smile with him.

Love, be happy and calm down, that´s my 3 keys to a good life. The 3rd point not always work *grin* But i try to improve.

So what´s the stuff which define your personality. Take a good cup of tea and take a little break to think about it.It´s worth the time, cause after think about that stuff i feel good and i think a have done many stuff right in my life.

So, i will try to show you some cuteness today so look after the page later, i am sure you will find a nice girl ^^

Have a nice sunday, and be lovely to each other ^^

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan must decide ....

Hello Friends,


Sunday is Sada-chan time. You wanna watch her, just switch on TV ;)

                          (Sada-chan is in TV - source pixiv) 

Last weeks i spend much time with my character in my NERV role-play. It is like back in teenage days when i did this regularly in AOL Forums or in my IRC groups. The nice fact is that my wife is attracted  of this cool world too. Thats fine. Share a hobby make it more fun. For luck my wife and i has much similar interest. Our love to JP, love to Anime and now the role-play ;)

Today there was a nice discussion in the Game some of our other player wrote "What if you must decide to save the world or me, what would you do ?"

Mhhh, hard to decide to save whole mankind or the one i love. To be honest, i must say for me an easy decision. I would ever save the one i love and forget about this world. I am a normal guy in a normal world, and i have no intentions to save all the world. I tried this many times. But the world not care for me most time´s so i can set priority to the people i like and love. If i spread love to this world, i will change the world. Maybe this change will be slow and take very long, but a change made on the base of love will be better than a fast and loveless one *grin*

Anybody has a priority in his live, mine it the LOVE and how i can protect it. But maybe you think its something different. What ever it is for you, as long as your priority is making you smile it is legit ;)

I wish you a nice Sunday my friends,

Shinji-kun