When dreams meet reality.....

Hello my friends,

yeah i know it´s been a while, but this has a reason.

(meet my girls in 2D and 3D - That are verious pics of Yumi and Asuka)

Actually it has two reasons.
The reasons are named Asuka and Yumi.
But let´s start from the beginning. Last year in March a friend of mine posted some about the birth of his son on G+.
I am a person who never wanted kids my own. I always thought it kills my freedom and my dreams. But i was wrong. Instead of kids i hunt for a dream i never could reach, and i blamed my bad health for the fact i failed. But it wasn´t true. I was not honest with myself.
I am personally not made to go big and make a career or live in a country far away. The only thing in my life i REALLY can is sharing love. My only good thing i can give is my heart, and therefore i had wrong goals for such a long time.
But with the sharings of my friend Matt, i found out that there is no better way to share my love then having a project wich is bigger than anything.
Create new life is a wonder, and with the birth of the son of Matt, i realize that i want that wonder too.
I switched my dream which was only a dream, and i decided to go for an adventure i can see, touch, love and which is REALLY worth to do.
I decided to have a kid my own.

The changes were low, the situation was bad, man i live a instable life, but my heart told me it was right. And i tell you something:

Wonders happen sometimes, especially when you believe in it.

In a very short time, the wish become reality and my wife got pregnant. Life and love found a way. And life loved us, cause we both felt there is something special with that pregnancy. Love was strong in my wife, and so the wonder happens. The love was too strong for a kid, so life gave us TWINS.
Yeah, you read right. Twins!!!
A really special thing. To have twins is a chance from 1:100. Especially if we not have any twins in my or wife´s family.
We are blessed with luck, and the luck becomes bigger and bigger.

So now we expect 2 girls. Yes, i wished so much for girls, and my dream come true. 2 nice girls for my little family. Asuka and Yumi, that´s the girls names, are now my future i can feel and see (at least on a sonogram).

The both will be born in May and the grow perfect.
I still love Japan, and i still collect figures, that never change. But sure my life is now focused on my special "delivery" i pre-ordered almost 9 month before. Selected with love, delivered with luck and made out of a deep and strong relationship.

I never realized that a real lucky life not depend on material stuff or what you´ve done. Real life is based on the love you share, and i will do. I will always make my girls smile and give them all the love they need. I feel strong, cause i have the luck on my side.
I resume that blog, but the themes i write about will focus on a different side of my life.

I really love too write about my family, and about what i feel. So if you like, you can follow me on my way to a future. Follow me to see how this world move forward with two new persons stepping on that planet.

Thanks to all of you who still follow this page, i hope you will love what i do, like i do love my girls.

Yours Shinji-kun

(my daughter Asuka in an actual 4D scan ^^ She is dreaming)

Sada-chan take it easy again....

Hello Friends,


it is Sunday and HOT (i love summer) so Sada-chan need a bit cool down. Here she is !

Many noticed that the blog is become more quiet and the updates are become a bit rare. That has many reasons. I still get much figures, but i am not in the mood to write stories at the moment, and just posting pics in not my style. At least a few words should be written to the girls, cause if i do not, it is just a figure blog like many others ;)
Another reason is that my wife and me (yeah i am a otaku with a family !) are try to create our own impact, which means we want a little Ikari in our life (a cute little tsun Asuka, or a sweet Shinji). So i spend more energy on my real life.
And last but not least, my world meltdown project in our roleplay need much time. So you see i am a bit busy.

I hope you still enjoy my blog, and i will show figures again in the future, but the updates will not follow a frequent day in the week. I just post when i have time and i am in the mood to do so.
And the 1,5-2k visits per month show me that you still like my blog.
Thanks for visit my little world and i hope you still like it.

A few days ago i had a discussion about real and online world with my co-workers. The could not understand that 99% of my friends are online. You know i met my wife online, so i am addicted to internet, that´s why i spend much time here. And after so many years i can say that online friendship is strong, maybe stronger that real ones. See, in my current situation where i switch my dreams from traveling all over the world to family i not miss the change to see the world. Thanks to my friends all over the planet i just must start a hangout to travel to the world within a seconds. See i love to be connected to the world without leaving my house. People call this crazy, but it is not crazy, it is just a new age we live in.
And i know so much ppl online that anytime i need advice, or just a friend to talk, someone is here for me.
So the digital world help me whenever the real world is cold.
That is why i keep this blog. I thought about closing it cause of the lack of time, but i think it is good to leave my footprints in the better part of existence... the digital one.


A lovely Sunday to all of you <3

Shinji-kun

Oh this pic is just great. Watch it ^^

Sada-chan trading dreams....

Hello Friends,


SUNDAY - time for Sadako ^^ YES YES <3

Sorry it is not halloween or something but i just i love the pic.

See friends, world is about love, that is what i always. Love, dreams, and hope. The 3 basements of a good live.

I love my wife, i dream of a family, and i hope for a future. See i had a dream in the past. Those who know the blog from the start know that my dream was to move to Japan and live the live i only dream. Want to be in a land where i belong to and live the live i like.
But time changes and dream change too.

I quit my dreams about moving. So this blog come to an end after all. No no you will see more unboxings soon and read my weird stuff. But the original reason for this blog ends today. My dreams will now be moved to reality. I trade one dream for another. I trade Japan for a new life. I trade my weird attitude for some serious. I trade the careless life for responsibility. I will have a new dream.
I will expand my love. And how could i do better than create new life with the person which i love more than ever.
I will have a kid soon. Let´s hope that fate is nice to me and fulfill this dream. I can´t wait to hold the ultimate prove of my love to my wife in my own hands. The moment when time stand still is not longer on the bridge over Sumida river in Tokyo. The moment when my time stand still will be the birth of my kid now. A journey for the rest of my lifetime. The only options to make my love to my wife deeper and stronger.
Two become three. The we way we go together we will share with the result of our love.
You know that love doubles when shared. I will spread this to the world.
I will teach my kid that if you act with love in the heart and live your dreams you maybe fail sometimes, but if you act with hate you fail for sure anytime.

People, i will write more about my family in the future. I give you my hand and guide you REAL LIFE in the world of my dreams. I am sure the day my dream come true is close, soooo close. I have hope in my heart and i am sure i can create a dream you all can see soon.

Wish me luck, love more and make this world a lovely place for all of us.

Shinji-kun <3

Sada-chan to infinity ....

Hello Friends,

it is sunday but it is not just a sunday, this sunday is an important one. But before i start i have found a cute and lovely Sada-chan for you. See and smile.

I am thoughtful at this sunday. This weekend could be the last of my old life i have. My family plans are going in the final state and next week becomes a important one.
I sit here and i think about my future. I trade my old dreams for new one´s and i hope that my future will be bright and wonderful even i see some clouds at the sky. But that´s not bad. Without rain there is no rainbow and without night there is no sunrise. So not bad to have a problem from time to time. But be honest, we all dream from a perfect future right ?

Last week was a sad one. I saw a dream die and a rule of my own life failing. I saw how a a family broke up. See that happens 1000 times, but in this case it broke my heart a bit, because it was the base of my own dreams. I mean if a perfect one break up how should my imperfect base work ?
My little family, wife and me, we are for sure not a stable base for a family. We both are a bit childish and we both live big dream even we go to far some times. But with the dream we both have we thought we can do it. Motivated due to the other family i changed my attitude and thought about my inconstant life and thought that with 33 it is time to start a halfway stable life, with kids and i realized that one of my biggest fear of the past, to get old in my hometown and with the same job like my mom´s life was, would become my future if i do the last step with my wife. I thought this fear is not bad, cause i saw that in another case it brings so much luck that i not fear this normal future anymore. But then i saw that in the case of the other family it not worked.
No i am really unsure. See, if some family which was the base of my dream, which i thought it was perfect not working, how could mine work. Weird thinking, right ? But that´s what bother my soul now.
But in the end i come to a conclusion. The others not have one thing i have. I never doubt my love, i never doubt my relationship. Sure when wife quarrel we both say sometimes stuff that we doubt but when we look in the others eyes we are see that are just words, our soul tell us different. Wife or myself never doubt our love. That´s a big difference to others. We never think about what if .....
We never think about leaving each other, we never think about what if love dies. Cause our life´s are connected. See, after 10 Years of relationship my wife and i still do all together, we still kissing each day like teens, we still tell us "i love you" ten time a day, we still discover some new in the other from day to day. Every day i wake up and see her i tell myself: YOU GOT IT ! I am rich of love cause i have her at my side.  My life is unstable and weird, but my love is strong. My love is my base, and i am sure if all others fail, my love can fix all problems for us without failing.
That´s why so many marriage broke. They always doubt things.
Most relationships are start with doubts. Die the others love me, did this last forever ? First questions most people ask them self when starting a new love. I never asked myself those questions when i met my wife. I saw her and i know that i never let her go if she is willing to do the same.
I found out that a strong relationship just need two things. That is love and closeness.
Time together, spend in love is the biggest base for a bright future and the greatest hope in dark nights when you are in desperations.

See a few years ago a did some mistakes and told my wife at one evening: It is better you go and leave me. It is not right to stand at my side after what´s happened.
She had tears in eyes and just shake head. Without words i saw she not doubt my love, not doubt my future, and she not even think a moment about leaving me. These time back than were dark and hopeless but in this time i found out that the love of my wife is my light in the darkest moments of my life. Now i remember those bad days i have a smile on my face. Even time were hard, i was never alone. And i am sure i never will be until i die. This all is a difference to the other family which failed.
Sad moments are less sad together, good ones become better when share.

So i am sure if i go this way, may little family project will be a big win, and our love will grow with my family grow. Cause i trust in love, i trust in love till infinity, and i not doubt, i never really did.
I am just sure that it work. And if it fails, ........ no it not fails. I thought about all, and still find no problem which can make it a fail.
Love always win, and YES friends, LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED. Most people forgot this fact in theses times.
You not need money, no great job, or some like that. Money not smile, a job not give a hug.

See it and know it, tust in your love. And fight for it. If your love weakens, fight and fight and not give up. Try to get it back, and YES get it back or die trying. To give up on love is like die. So i personal can give just that advice. If you give up on your love, you give up life and the reason you be on this planet.

With this words i end my journey to my soul. Net week will set my life new from the base, but this base is strong. So i smile and look forward what my life brings to me. I see a bright future. I always wanted to be important for the world. But why for the world, it is enough to be important for the persons you love, that´s more than any other.

Love and Live are not accidental written almost similar. Live is not possible without Love <3

Have a nice sunday and a bright future,

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan´s new frontiers....

Hello Friends,

Sunday, and Sada-chan is ready again. Wanna see her. Here we go.

Hehe, i found this sketches and so i show her this way today.
It has absolutely nothing to do with my topic today.

As you guys know i plan to start my own family very soon. I perpare this like a science topic in a lab. All stuff must be perfect. Nothing will be made randomly. I want not to make mistakes. But i sometimes i think that nature will do the job better than i ever can prepare this.
My will to reproduce raise from day to day *grin*


Anyway i waited so long i could wait a few weeks longer for this actions. See, i change my life massive these days.

I personally hate change..... not hate, that is the wrong topic. I FEAR change. I am fear what could happen. Sometimes i want to do what Taka in my book did. Stop time at a perfect moment ;)
So this step i do is the biggest i ever did in my life. After i did that nothing will be the same anymore.,
I stop my dream about living somewhere else and i settle down to my town for all time. I will always be the Shinji who live in a little German town and dream about Japan and never get there gain (at least for next 10 years).

Today i had a very nice and long talk with my friend +Matt Virgo . He is a really wise guy and told me how he handle that and this gave me a bit hope and a different point of view.
Plan a family can be a bigger trip than travel to the space. Expect much and get much more.
Really i can´t wait to hold a new little Ikari in my arms and explore the world with her / him and show how precious life can be, even you just live in a little German town and dream of another places.

I think i am on the fist step to a journey which ist the biggest in my whole lifetime.
The start is now, the destination is life, and the way is love.

Never give up, and trust in those you love, and there is always a way.

I am ready, i want to have my one way ticket to a bright future.
Love is here, the rest we find on the way,


Shinji-kun

Sada-chan is serious ..... ?

Hello Friends,


Sunday is time for Sada-chan.
Here she is, and she is sweet ;)

Today i am a bit unsure. I mean i am still working on develop my family.
See, i am sure i want kids now and sure i can handle all the problems which could happen. But after so many years of doubts on myself and doubts of my wife if i mean it serious we both have a bit problems to take some things serious.
I mean i think wife say to easy "yes i am sure" and i say to easy "yes i am honest now".
See, to much fun can make trouble if it comes to the serious part.

Anyway i must try to take it serious, and wife must try to trust i have change about my opinion to have a family now.
A step we both can do now ? We will never regret it if we do it ? We are absolute sure for all time ?
No, i donßt think so. There is no "absolute sure for all time" in the world, there is only an "absulute sure now". One exception of course. We both sure that love last forever.
If you see it from this point we are sure about the kid. I mean if we give him love this works on the kid too. We never regret our love, so we will never regret the kid, right ?
A simple logive. As said many times. If you include love in a thing ,you can master almost everything.

I always thought in jealousy of a kid, cause my wife will give love to children, and not only to me anymore. But i am changed my mind rapidly, cause i learned one sure thing. Love does not lower if you share it, it doubles and come back twice as strong ^^


So i am serious about this all ? I think so, but i am not sure. But if i close eyes and listen to my heart and think of all what could happen, i have a smile on my face, so not bad, right ?


I wish you a niceand lovely sunday <3

Shinji-kun

Sada-chan is into family.....

Hello Friends,

today Sada-chan is a bit late but i enjoyed the the first really sunny day in this year so i set IRL higher than my world here, forgive me folks.

Anyway Sada-chan is here for you, and today she is not alone. See and smile:

Why i chose a family pic on my blog ? Simple: Those who read my postings more often know, that Sada-chan is always a reflection of my feelings and very personal.

In the last weeks my emotional world changed massive. I think it all started when i watched my friend +Matt Virgo on G+ posting a picture where he was baking some cake with his nice daughter. 

I must be honest. I am a careless guy which never thought of kids or a family, until that posting. 

I must really say i always was against having kids and want to enjoy life alone with my wife. I was jealous that my wife will gave a part of her love to a kid and i am not her number one anymore. Yes, thats what i think. I wanted my life the way it was for all the time. Live without much responsibility and  without any problems a kid can cause.

But after seeing my friends pics of him and his daughter i changed massive. I followed every of Matt´s posting with passion, especial about the pregnancy of his wife wit the little Itashi. It make me smile every day when he told to us and waited with his family for the birth of his newborn.

I lived a part of his life when watching this new life begin. Yes Matt, your little one, your daughter and your family changed my attitude about priorities massive.

I really thought hard about what i want to do now, and i set my priority to another level. My old goal was to see Japan again, to travel around the world and have much fun. But i must say this is not longer important to me, cause i could reach this dreams and then the are short and then fade away. I wished so much to walk over Komagata-bashi bridge again, the place where the life and the time is born, but i realized that i just must close my eyes to be there instantly. I still can feel the sun from the last morning i stand on this bridge when i close my eyes, and i can feel the slight breeze then. The view of Sumida river and the mornings sounds of Tokyo. Oh how i missed that place. But i never left it for real, a part of my soul is still there, and i have a smile on my face now when i think about it.

So i can say "good bye dreams it was nice to have you" and i can do it with a smile.

I want to start the travel of my lifetime without leaving my door. I don´t want to see the place where life come from, i want to see life which grows, i want to have a family. I want to see the miracle if new life with my own eyes, i want to hear the first heartbeats of a kid on a CTG, i want to feel the first kicks of a little one when i touch the belly of my wife, and i want to see how my family grows. 

Yes Denise, you not take me serious, cause i speak still like a baka in this topic, but i am deadly serious now. I want to go this step with you, the sooner the better. No doubt, no fear, no other dreams are so important than to share this precious moments. We mastered so much in our past 10 Years together, so this new journey should be very easy for us to handle. As long as we side by side we can do that with a smile on our face and with love in our hearts.

See, other people has a weird life too, and our personal situation is all other then optimal, but i am think that all which is need to do this is deep love. I have not the big money, i have not the perfect social status, and we sure live a life which is all other than normal, but i am sure we both can do this if we just believe in it. 

I never asked you proper if you would marry me. I just decided this and you agreed, and this was not romantic at all, and i am very sorry about this. But now i will ask you something really important, and i do it now and here in the web.

Why i do it this way ? First is that our love grown up in this media, and second i can write better than i talk, cause here speaks my soul only.

Want you have a family with me, would you make me the most happy guy in the world and go this step with me ? Want you take the first step to the journey of my lifetime ? 

I love you with all my heart, and i will support you as long as i can, you will never be alone. Love, grows day by day, so let´s our love grow a bit more <3

This was a very personal posting and i hope you all smile a bit with me now ^^

Love it is worth everything,

Shinji-kun